Monday, September 22, 2008
JSH: Not how I thought it would be
I don't care any more if anyone believes me or not I just want to stop figuring out this stuff. I just want it to stop.
Every rationalization I have for why I keep working at this math crap is gone and I just wish I could stop.
They hate it. The math people. They hate the knowledge.
I was a kid reading about discoverers wondering to myself if I were in Newton's place or in Euclid's or any of the others, would I figure out the same things?
Now I wish they hadn't. I wish this sick, serpentine, twisted, nothing of a world could just die.
And take its things with it.
I want the human race to just quit lying, quit pretending and just die.
You do not deserve knowledge.
You deserve to just die and quit desecrating this earth.
I used to dream. I used to hope. I used to believe in something.
Now all I dream about is the extinction of the haters. The end of the liars. The death of all of you who hate knowledge and pretend you care. Pretend you give a damn.
Pretend you want to know.
Before God I pray, end this madness. They have prayed for their end my Lord.
Let them die.
Every rationalization I have for why I keep working at this math crap is gone and I just wish I could stop.
They hate it. The math people. They hate the knowledge.
I was a kid reading about discoverers wondering to myself if I were in Newton's place or in Euclid's or any of the others, would I figure out the same things?
Now I wish they hadn't. I wish this sick, serpentine, twisted, nothing of a world could just die.
And take its things with it.
I want the human race to just quit lying, quit pretending and just die.
You do not deserve knowledge.
You deserve to just die and quit desecrating this earth.
I used to dream. I used to hope. I used to believe in something.
Now all I dream about is the extinction of the haters. The end of the liars. The death of all of you who hate knowledge and pretend you care. Pretend you give a damn.
Pretend you want to know.
Before God I pray, end this madness. They have prayed for their end my Lord.
Let them die.