Harristotelian Logic

I think the worst thing about all of this is the death of certain fantasies. Some of you may have believed that if you had that one great idea, like if Fate shined on you, and bestowed upon you a brilliant mathematical idea, you too could have found your place in the mathematical history.

Not unless THEY let you.

And to decide whether or not they'd let you, they'd have carefully considered the political impact of your discovery, and if it were truly brilliant, and you were not a mathematics Ph.D with years of experience and "polish" demonstrated through lots of publications in major math journals—they would have crushed you, or tried, like they have with me.

So how did it happen? How could it happen?

Better question is, why didn't it happen before?

Answer is, luck. Humanity got lucky, and at crucial points in history there have always been brilliant individuals who stepped in, and managed to get the truth through.

I am the first of my line to have a run of really, really, really bad luck.

The consequences are huge. After Gauss faded and died the math field got corrupted, but there was an explosion of development done with the old mathematics, so humanity didn't suffer.

But the next steps, require that number theory be fixed, and I am muddling along, fighting and getting nowhere and getting angrier by the minute with this horrible run of bad luck.

So, with options fading, there is little left to do but show some of the machinery behind the discoveries that shaped this world, to unveil to a greater extent than before the connection between the discoverers and the reality we see, the destiny that pushes one of us, and the consequences to the world.

My failure is not something you can comprehend in terms of the impact, but I can, and it is not something I can allow.

I will not fail. And to make certain that I do not fail, I will do what is necessary to take this beyond luck and bring it back to destiny.

But in the process who knows how much of this world will be changed as you do not understand the necessity of the rules of this reality that require that someone like me does not fail, and how much can be sacrificed to make it a certainty.

So you have no chance to get some brilliant idea of your own if it didn't push past those currently holding power over an important domain.

And now you may have no chance to stop the consequences of a reality that is something you cannot quite grasp, where the rules are so much more powerful than you ever imagined.